Gazing up

It's an everlasting flame, the one that always burns.
The reoccurring dream, the memory which returns.
That memory returns around this time of year.
A memory that I cherish, something I hold dear.
Of a moment o so magical, I can hardly explain why.
That short moment of perfection, it got burned onto my eye.
Now that the time grows nearer a feeling suddenly appears
An intense feeling of longing that brings me close to tears.
It's the feeling I should go away, away from all the lights.
A longing to be on a boat and gaze up at starry nights.
Gaze up and hold her near me, the one that stole my heart.
Gaze up together and both wish that we will never part.

The Dance

Every time we meet, we always do the same.
We move around in circles, it's like a silly game.
I'll take one step forward and you'll step to the side.
Whenever I start running, you'll just stop and hide.
Everyone who sees us together, will look at us and say...
Such a lovely couple, when all we do is play.
We dance closely together, we smile, we laugh, we flirt.
No one dares to go any further, too afraid we might get hurt.
Why don't we stop this silly game and finally take a chance.
Let us both start living and stop this childish dance.

Pain

The pain of losing is hard to bare
but in your heart they're always there.
That pain will stay and won't subside
at first in the open, but then it will hide.
It will jump out and grab you from out of the blue
and when that happens there's only one thing to do...
Embrace that pain, shout out and cry
because when you forget, that's when they really die.

Remember

People come and people go
that is something we all know
the bad can go the good ones stay
but sometimes the best will go away
they leave too soon, it goes so fast
that's why those memories will have to last
not just the good ones, also the bad
forgetting anything would be so sad
remember everything, don't ever forget
'cause when you remember, no one is really dead.

Stupid Mistakes

It's all you can think about and it won't let you go.
It wasn't a very smart thing to do, but because of it you can grow.
You've grown a little wiser and have learned from your mistakes.
You only needed to accept it, that's all it ever takes.
Don't be afraid to mess up again, standing still won't help at all.
Leaping in headfirst is better, that's how you'll lose your fear to fall.
Naturally things don't always go as planned, they hardly ever do.
But when your not afraid of failure, it'll not be something new.
So get back on your feet again, don't be ashamed of things that have passed.
Look hopeful to your future. The shame will fade and your pride will outlast.

A New Direction

It's like finding yourself at a fork in the road.
Which way do you go? The sign don't help, they all say the same thing.
Whatever direction you take you'll end up somewhere unknown.
There are no guarantees that you'll will like the outcome of whatever path you take.
But the goals the paths lead to are all the same.
But which one do you take? And does it really matter?
I think it does.
Even-though the roads all lead to the same goal, which path you take can influence you a great deal.
Will you take the short cut? so you'll be there very quick? Or maybe the scenic route so you can take in the sights.
The road less traveled could be more your cup of tea if you're the adventurous type.
Or is it the path of least resistance that draws you in?
Each path tells you a about who you are and what you're made of.
And each path will give you different experiences in return.
So which path is the best? If there is such a thing.
Can you switch paths or do you have to stay your course?
Will you live your life regretting that you have chosen the wrong path?
Do you really have to choose only one path?
One thing is clear and that is that the only way is forward.
One path two or all of them it doesn't matter how many or which you choose, as long as you make a choice.
make a choice and take that new direction.
But which path will I take?

Slap in the Face?

Even-though it was a secret, I've known it for a while.
And when you finally told me, I took it with a smile.
Is it a fling or something serious, I couldn't really care less.
It's not because you don't matter, It's because you do, I guess.
I really wish you well and I hope it will workout.
And if it doesn't, it's his fault, that I can say without a doubt.
Not feeling upset right now won't be something I'll regret.
Because the time we had together is something I'll never forget.

Desparate pleas for attention.

It's nothing new, it's been there a while.
This feeling is nice, it makes me smile.
It's just that I'm not sure what I'm to do.
Do I need to wait, or do I have to pursue.

Shall I play it smooth and really slow?
Or would that just annoy you and make you say NO!
Do I have a shot or is my mind playing tricks.
Are you for real? Or is it just for kicks.

I need to know what it is, I'm going insane!
You've got nothing to lose and so much to gain.
So just tell me what I want to hear and you better say it quick.
'Cause I can't stand another minute not knowing, it really makes me sick.

It won't be much trouble, it'll only take a sec.
But when you do, you won't regret, you'll never want to go back.
So come over quick, phone or write before things go amiss.
Then tell me want I need to hear and we'll start it with a kiss.

The Kissing Scale

In this digital age we text and mail all day.
Loved ones, friends, lovers, we all send them our love.

But what we send and what we receive has more meaning than you think.

This is what we send and what we say when we send it.

xoxo are hugs and kisses for a friend or family member when you want to send your love.

:-x is the kissing face. A fun way to show your affection. It has many variations, but always means the same.
Love is shown, but it will always be less personal than the others that will be discussed here later.

x is a kiss to someone dear to you, but just a small one. More personal than the kissy face.
Just enough so the otherone knows you care.

X is a bigger kiss. You want to make sure they know how you feel about them.
You obviously care a lot.

Kiss is, when written in full, a means to let someone know that they are very high on your list.

Not something you send to a relative. You purposely chose to type out the whole word.
You could probably say that you have feelings for this person that go beyond friendship.

When you're at the receiving end of a text and you really like that person.
You'll hope it'll end with a "Kiss"...

Moral Support

Sometimes when you're blue and feeling down, someone can cheer you up with just the right words.
Sometimes it's family, it can be a friend or maybe it's a neighbour. Even strangers can lift your spirit.
Some people are able to do this more effectively than others.
Sometimes it's because they're are wise and know exactly what to say.
It can also be that all you needed was pat on the shoulder or a hug.
Some people however have a power over you that few others have.
It's when these people show that they care that it can really make a huge difference.
When they tell you it'll turn out allright, you instantly believe it.
When they say there's no need to worry, you won't worry anymore.
When they wish you a good night, you'll sleep like a baby.
That person can make or break your day.
Just a text can make you feel lighter than air.
That's when you know that person is special to you.
Let's just hope you won't need to be cheered up by anyone else...

Bad Decision, Worse Decision‏

Sometimes were caught in a place with, it seems, no good way out.
Should you go and break someones heart or stay and be unhappy yourself.
But why live a lie, why stick around if all there is, is hurt and pain?
Is it that tears have such power over you that it stops you from
thinking clearly?
Is it because you fear what will become of you after you make that
decision?
Is it because it's just convenient to know that there is someone who
cares.
Because you fear going at it all alone?
It's the third option that liberates you, it sets you free.
For it is only when you realize that you ultimately live your life to
serve your own needs, it's then you know what has to be done.
It won't be a bad decision, maybe just a little bit of a sad decision.
But in the end, it's the best decision you can make.

The End of the End

It's hard to understand that love can end.
It's brutal that it can leave you broken hearted with the feeling
something died inside of you.
It can bring down even the strongest of men.
It can make you feel so small and insignificant that you start to
think that you don't matter at all in this world.
That is until you fall in love again.
At first it will scare you shitless.
You have experienced from first hand that love can end.
You have been hurt before and you have felt the agony and despair of
being left behind.
Love however isn't only blind, it makes you forget.
Love can make the baddest day feel okay.
Love can make vinegar taste like fine wine.
Love can make you feel so incredibly alive like nothing else in this
world can do.
That is why you can take that risk, that is why you get back on the
horse, that is why you will dive in headfirst once you find it again.
Because some love is never ending.

Average

It's not good, it's not bad, it's somewhere in between.
It's not the best, it's not the worst, it's just something you have
seen.
It's what nobody aspires, yet what most of us will be.
It's what everybody knows, but nobody wants to see.
It's what no one wants to hear and no one ever tells.
It's the fact that you're not special, just like everybody else.

Surroundings

Lying awake in a strange new bed.
Listening for sounds when I should be sleeping instead.
Everything is different, like the way that the sheets smell.
From the sights out the window to the sound of the doorbell.
Those kind of things might make you scream and shout...
I want things back to normal! Why did I move out?
That decision has been made, there's simply nothing you can do.
You just have to accept the change, even if you're feeling blue.
They might keep you from your sleep, but there's no more need to roam.
The new surroundings are strange, as that new place is your home.
That feeling will subside, they can hardly ever last.
Before long the strange surroundings will be just a thing of the past.

Attached

We're all attached to someone.
Father, mother, brother, sister,
friend, colleague, lover.
Attachment to people is normal.
It's because we can interact with them.

But other than people you also have attachments to places and objects.
These things don't talk back but can give you a certain feeling nothing else in the world can give you.
A feeling of belonging, of being home.

To leave such an attachment behind is tough.
It makes you feel empty inside, like losing someone dear to you.
You take one last look around and take a stroll down memory-lane.
It's a sad thing to leave it behind, but you'll still be forever attached.

Move

Boxes far and boxes near.
Some to take with, others to disappear.
What can go and what can stay,
A decision I'll make another day.

Leaving here is very hard and tough,
But in this case enough is just enough.
Sure I'm sorry and I'm sad that I'm going,
I'm making a new start, that's something worth knowing.

A fresh start elsewhere, for me all alone.
A home, a shelter, a place to call my own.
First it'll be weird, the first nights that I'm there.
All the strange new sound may be more than I can bare.

It's something to get used to, something to endure.
I'll eventually call it home, of that I'm very sure.
I have high hopes for all the things that will improve.
But it's still a sad thought that I really have to move.

High Hopes

You look forward to it, you know it's possible.
The preparations were optimal, everything worked out to the finest detail.
As the moment draws near the adrenaline rises.
You can barely keep your nerves under control, but you manage.
This is what you have lived for, the moment of truth just seconds away.
It's almost too much to bare, but nothing can keep you away from this, the ultimate goal.
Gold!

Reasons

It's something you can't explain, it just is.
You feel you need to do it and nobody can tell you otherwise.
The urge is so strong, it is almost like an addiction.
Yet it is something you can go without if you simply can't find the time.
If somebody would ask you why, you wouldn't be able to answer.
Why does this urge, this drive, this feeling need explaining anyway?
People are always looking for reasons, even if there are none.
Somethings just are.

So Close, But Yet So Far

It's so close you can almost reach it.
That one time your lucky numbers won the lottery,
you just didn't buy a ticket 'cause you forgot.
That time you responded to an ad in the newspaper,
only to find out someone else has beaten you to the punch seconds earlier.
Or when you are in a great scoring position when the clock runs out on you.

Those are the most frustrating moments live can throw at you.
But not to worry, things will eventually fall your way.

OMGWITHTM!

We've all been there, that awkward moment.
The embarrassing situation.
The moment you wished you didn't exist.
That "O my god, why is this happening to me!" moment.

Well it's never funny when you're the one living it.
You keep looking for that hole in the floor to disappear in.
Or the aliens landing, taking all the eyes off of you.
But sometimes standing next to someone living that moment,
sometimes it can be the funniest thing you'll ever see.